muted emotions.

i always sit down and wait for you. i stay home just in case you’d come, i want to be available. i want to always be with you. and you’ve got the other side of the situation. you’re always busy and it seems that you wouldn’t want to go out with me.

things had been so different these past few weeks. i don’t know. and at this week, i was so shocked to find out that you’re moving. the last year was so horrifying when i found out you’re going out of the country, but i was relieved when it was canceled but now, here’s the same scenario.

tell me what am i supposed to do. i don’t have any idea of what is going on. has fate really ordered you to stay away from me, or have you settled down yourself that i’m as good as done. i hate feeling like this everyday. having to wake up thinking will i see you in a few hours or will i have to wait until the next day or the next few weeks or will i never see you again.

do you ever think of our relationship? do you really love me? then why don’t i feel it. what’s your proof? is there any evidence?

i’m sick and tired of always being like this. tell me if i should still wait or if i would have to look for someone else.