clueless.

yeah, we're ON. the relationship existed 11 months ago, and still exists 'til now. we've been through a lot of things. we love each other, so much. and who would ever think it would end up to be my fault that i'm really not for him after all? this is what happens when imature people fall in love and grow mature, learning the painful truths about what they used to not know. i thought i could fight for him, in order for my parents to accept him. i was fueled up when he made me meet his parents, but know, we both realized i wouldn't work well enough with my parents. [tears] how come this happens? we've done a lot of things already that made a lot of memories. we sneak out from the house just to watch stars together and stroll on his auto. we went out of town just to stroll a mall about 3 hours from home and get to to go home that late [not to mention the excuses, the "lies" i gambled saying just to make mom believe me].

i always want to save our relationship. i always look at its every angle, in case i see a way to get on with it. i really love him, really do.